Do You Have Angst?

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Changing it up

I've never been a believer of change for the sake of change.  Actually, I'm not a big fan of change at all.  When I went to college, Mom replaced the kitchen plates with new ones.  I almost couldn't eat off of them!  If something works, then I can't imagine why I would anyone would want to do something different, especially when it comes to writing.

I wrote Angst in three places.  The first place started with a walk, I'd spend a half hour every day walking a path at a nearby park.  I would listen to music, typically movie soundtracks, and visualize what I would write about later that day.  The second included going to the local bookstore, sipping on a mocha (either hot or cold depending on the weather), sometimes eating a cookie (shhh) and attempting to hammer out what I thought about during my walk.  Finally, I spent time hidden away in my mad scientist laboratory (office), where I would have a drink, smoke a cigar, listen to more soundtracks, and pace while world-building.

I created some pretty good habits by the time I finished Angst.  This made it almost shocking when I started writing Angst 2.  I brushed broad strokes of outlines and plot threads in my office, went to park to walk through some of the finer points to get to the book store and …nothing.  Some of the worst writing I've done…since the beginning of the first book.  I was at a loss of what to do.  This was more than a roadblock, I honestly wondered if I could make it happen again.  Unintentionally, I made a little change.

(Skip this next paragraph if you are bored by computer stuff)  I've always been a geek (go figure) and have always been a fan of Linux.  (An Operating System, like Windows, but free.)  For years I have configured my main computer to dual-boot both Ubuntu Linux and Windows.  I don't spend a lot of time in Ubuntu because most of the video games I play are written for Windows.  Last week Ubuntu released a new version, 11.04 Natty Narwhal (each release is named after an animal.)  I decided to upgrade my main computer to the new version, and on a whim I also replaced Windows XP on my netbook, the computer I take to the bookstore, with Ubuntu.  My hope was that an operating system without the distraction of my Windows installed games would keep me focused on writing.

After making this change, something clicked.  I went to the bookstore and wrote my equivalent of Hamlet.  Okay, not really, but I did hammer out some pretty solid pages.  Those pages were enough to get my brain thinking of other things that could make the book work.  I found myself up late making notes on my phone when I should have been sleeping, and that's not a complaint.  Installing Linux on my netbook, and using it on my primary computer, was a minor change without completely overhauling the habits that worked when writing the first book.  For whatever reason, I'm inspired to write more.  Maybe it's the fun of something new and different, or some unknown switch clicked in my brain.  Either way, I'm definitely going to have to keep this in mind next time I hit the block, that a little change can bring results.

A quick plug for Linux, you can read more about it on Wikipedia here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Linux .  If you are interested, with a little research you can find out why it's free and what free means in the GNU world.  Chances are you are using Linux now, for example if you have a Droid phone, that's one of the many flavors of Linux.  You can find Ubuntu here: http://www.ubuntu.com .  The most recent version is beautiful, but I'll admit that I use the 'classic' version with docky on my main computer, and the Unity desktop on my netbook.  There is a great review about the current release of Ubuntu at Ars Technica here: http://bit.ly/mGPHcL  I'm not a Windows or Microsoft hater by any means, but I'd spend more time using Linux if more games were compatible without having to use WINE.  (Just sayin')  If you are interested in trying Ubuntu, please be aware, DO NOT INSTALL WITHOUT BACKING UP YOUR DATA.  I would feel awful if someone lost their work just to try Linux without realizing it can delete everything. o_O

Monday, April 25, 2011

Angst Is Not For Everyone

Today was one of the most quintessential ‘I hate Mondays’ I’ve experienced in a long time.  If I had written about a Monday like today, most editors would call my experiences cliché.  My son inadvertently woke me an hour early…I couldn’t get back to sleep due to a bloody nose…I was late to the office…no parking spots were available and I had to park two lots over…I left my raincoat in my wife’s car which was at the shop…needless to say it was raining and I got drenched…oh, and I got the first negative feedback on my book.

It’s probably against the rules of marketing books and such, to share that someone in the world hates what you’ve written.  But it’s out there, on Goodreads if you’re looking.  I’ve been fortunate to the point of being spoiled with everyone’s kind remarks.  I’ll admit to a bit of pride in telling my Mom and Dad, “Nobody hates Angst…yet.”  I guess it’s ‘yet’ now.

The review isn’t rough enough to anger me into a frenzy of deep creative writing (that would have been cool), nor thought provoking enough to say, “that reader is right, I should’ve done that” or “I could do that better next time.”  It was empty and indirect enough that it pinched the underside of my arm with a quiet, “I didn’t like.”

I was expecting worse, or better from a negative review.  I don’t admonish the reviewer, that person’s opinion of Angst is every bit as legitimate as those who have enjoyed reading it.  (Enter snarky comment of your choosing here if you disagree.)  But it’s like I told my friend Cristi today, you don’t expect everyone to like what you’ve written, but you still want them to.

The great thing about my ‘writing career’ right now, is that I can write to share me and hope others get something out of it.  Angst is very much my story, an old friend from High School (who DID love my novel by the way, heh) shared that reading it was like spending an evening talking to me.  I felt a great desire to share my thoughts about life, and I still do.  My hope is that others similarly frustrated with how things happen, or irritated with getting older, appreciate the ‘what if’ and ‘grass isn’t necessarily greener’ parts of Angst.  I hope those who ‘get me’ enough to enjoy my sense of humor finish the book with a few laughs and well entertained and maybe even wanting for more.

What I walk away with from the negative feedback on Goodreads is a reminder that Angst isn’t for everyone, it’s for everyone else, including me.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

One Sentence at a Time

Saturday:   Today I'm going to write my blog post…
Sunday: …and then I'm going to work on this great idea of the next chapter…
Monday: …oh, and finally I'm going to squeeze in some marketing time for book 1 and #amediting.
Tuesday:  Where did Tuesday come from, I haven't even finished my Saturday blog post yet.

Shh.  Don't let my calendar know but I'm trying to sneak this post in between meetings, family time, needy friends, exercise, house projects, tweeting and maybe a nap but probably not.  This reminds me of a time six months into writing Angst, I was frustrated for not getting enough done.  Not by anyone else's standards, I simply had a story that needed to come out.  I quickly found it wasn't the instant gratification of winning a video game or an evening out with friends, this novel required a commitment like training for one of my marathons.

Amidst my frustrations, I happened to catch an NPR bit about some established writer (don't ask me his name because I can't even remember where I put my keys yesterday).  The gist of his wisdom during the 15 minute interview boiled down to … it's okay to write just one good sentence a day.  Progress, any progress, counts.  It's really good advice when I remember to heed it.

I get upset when I intend to write War & Peace and Les Miserables in one sitting and end up with a paragraph, or even just a sentence.  But, on those rare occasions when I experience flashes of realistic expectations I remember how important that one good sentence is, I remember that it counts as progress, and I'm a little less frustrated.  A little.  Since this post counts as more than one sentence, I'm gonna throw my cape back on and go fix something.



Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Review copies of Angst now available

I am making a limited number of Angst review copies available at no charge.  These can be downloaded from Smashwords for free by going here: http://www.smashwords.com/books/view/38779 and using the coupon code TF24B.  E-mail me the link of your review and I will gladly share that link on my blog, facebook page, and via tweets.  Thanks for your support!

If you are interested in seeing reviews others have posted, I have included some links below:
Review of David J. Pedersen's "Angst" by J. M. Tresaugue http://jmtresaugue.blogspot.com/
goodreads reviews: http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/9802360-angst
Amazon reviews: http://www.amazon.com/Angst-David-J-Pedersen/dp/1452824088/
Barnes and Noble reviews: http://search.barnesandnoble.com/Angst/David-Pedersen/e/2940011870057/
Fantasy Faction: http://fantasy-faction.com/forum/reviews-recommendations/angst-david-j-pedersen/